Positive Daily Three – Day 145

Today was a pretty good day.

I went to the park with my youngest and got a good workout in with my friend and a nice visit.  I was definitely feeling the workout today.  It was a tough one, but we both survived.

I took my youngest to Home Depot so that I could get some PVC piping.  I am making an attempt to create a travel tray for my kids since I cannot find any that work the way I’d like them to.  I was successful in gathering all the materials I need.  Next step, the building phase.  I’ll let you know how it goes.  As my youngest and I were shopping, I noticed that she was having trouble keeping her eyes open.  I picked her up out of the cart, thinking that she would wake up, but instead, she fell asleep on my shoulder.  The poor thing was definitely tired.  It felt nice to have her fall asleep on me, though.  She hasn’t done that in a little while.

Lastly, I was happy because for two meals in a row, the kids have been delighted with dinner.  This seems trivial, but it is awesome to me because it makes dinner enjoyable and more relaxing.  Not having to argue and watching them happily eat is a total win.

Positive Daily Three – Day 144

It is so amazing to me how quickly time can slip through our fingers, but, at the same time, how much can happen in such a short amount of time.  My path these past couple of months has taken a few turns I didn’t anticipate.  I have begun a spiritual journey that has become more important to me than I ever thought it would be.  I have developed a friendship that has been awesome and needed.  I have gone on adventures with the kids that I never imagined I would be capable of doing on my own.  I have gone through resiliency training and learned a great deal about myself and how to grow relationships and interact with others in a much more positive light.  I have found a smoother rhythm with my children and we have all been cooperating with each other in a more effective way.  Most importantly, I have felt and experienced the heartache of how long a year can feel with my husband away, but I have slowly learned the importance of reaching out to friends and asking for help when I can no longer withstand the weight of loneliness on my back.  These past few days have really brought to light some of the changes that have been occurring in me these last two months.

I had a conversation with my oldest daughter a while back that prompted me to start trying to find a way to provide my children with a little more spirituality.  A mentor at the time, who has become an amazing friend that has inspired, taught and brought out the best in me, invited me to join her at church.  I have to admit that I considered finding an excuse about why I couldn’t go, but in the end, I pushed myself to try it.  I got chills during some of the music, and felt like I needed to keep going down this path to see where it lead me.  The sermons have been diving into developing a relationship with Jesus, so I began reading the bible in an effort to better understand who Jesus is.  While reading, I think about the questions that I have and then pray about them.  Before this long weekend began, I had been reading the Gospel of Matthew and John and remember reading about several miracles that Jesus performed.  I asked the question, “Why isn’t He here now, performing those miracles in a world that is extremely troubled.  Where is He now?”  Over the weekend, I encountered two entirely different people whom I was hanging out with at different times.  Through no prompting on my part, these two individuals shared a piece of their life story that was tragic, and yet, both of them, against all odds, survived and moved forward in a positive manner.  Something I probably would not have seen, noticed, or thought about before, was the presence of Jesus in these two unrelated stories and how He was there in their lives to provide them with a miracle.  As I encounter these different moments, I find my faith slowly starting to grow and deepen.  This is a part of me I never thought I would have to develop, but I am finding that I want to keep pushing myself to try to find the answers to the questions I have while taking baby steps forward toward that cliff where I will finally be able to let go and take that complete leap of faith.

On Monday, I went on a hike with the kids.  The hike was more strenuous than I anticipated, but we took our time and made it to the end.  It was worth every step.  The view of the mountain from where we were was amazing.  The trees colored the path in multiple shades of green.  Waterfalls, though small compared to some I have seen, surrounded us.  The snow still on the ground added a nice contrast to the rock of the mountain.  Though it was noisy, I was able to tune all of the noise out for just a few moments and appreciate all of the beauty and peace the peak had to offer.

On Tuesday, my amazing friend took me out for my birthday.  We had a wonderful time talking and trying out a new restaurant.  She is an awesome person, and we had such a good time that neither of us really paid attention to the time.  We were both out later than we planned for, but that time is something I will cherish, and I definitely don’t regret being out late.

Today, I took my youngest to a pool party and had a wonderful time.  I love getting in the water and playing.  It will always be something that relaxes me and makes me feel like a kid again.  My youngest even got in the water without any trouble and was swimming around by herself in her puddle jumper because she could do it all by herself (her knew favorite phrase).  I got my run in today which felt great because I have been a slacker over the weekend.  One of the greatest things about today and this weekend was that we had some very long, good, and fun conversations with my husband, and that is always a great thing!

As I travel forward through the sands of time, I know there will be departures and arrivals, adventures, discoveries, moments, and so much more.  I am learning that the most important thing to do as time passes, is to be aware and to spend those passing moments being grateful for everything that is in front of me and around me.  I want to find the courage to look into that mirror and make the changes that I seek.

Positive Daily Three – Day 138

I just got done with my run and I feel fantastic!  The wind was blowing, my legs were pumping and not slowing down, the music that played were the songs I needed to push me through.  The best part, though, was that at the end of my run, on my cool down walk, I felt the wind gliding through my hair, pushing through my fingers, I saw the stars shining down in the night, and I felt the spirit inside of me.  I haven’t felt that for a while, but tonight, I felt that connection with everything at a very deep level.  It was an awesome feeling.

Today wasn’t a great day, but I got the things accomplished that I needed to.  The car has now had its 15000 mile service and oil change, my oldest’s uniform has been dry cleaned and will be returned to school tomorrow for ROTC, and I cleaned out the mailbox today.  Not great things, but things that I can check off of my to do list, so definitely positive things.

I took my youngest to Jumper’s Jungle, an indoor bouncy house, after we spent 2 hours at the car dealership.  She definitely deserved it.  She wanted to stay longer, but we had to pick my oldest up, so we might return tomorrow.

My son gained even more confidence on his bike without his training wheels, and is now doing it all on his own.  I just watch him.  I am so proud to see him come so far in such a short time.

Positive Daily Three – Day 137

My gratitude tree seems to be growing.  There are negative things that I encounter throughout the day, but as I continue to spend most of my time reflecting on the positive things that happen, the negative things start to carry less weight and I spend a lot less time dwelling on them.

I got my workout in at the park with my friend, and my youngest and her son played well together today.  We have also made a new friend that comes to the park regularly now, so our little community is growing.

I was going to bring my youngest to an indoor bouncy house place today, but she wanted to have a picnic outside instead.  While the weather wasn’t ideal, I decided we might as well.  We ate lunch outside and put together a puzzle.  I enjoyed snuggling with her and reading to her on the couch as well.  She even got a nap in today.

My son was much more confident on his bike today.  He lost his fear and even got started completely on his own a couple of times.  I was very proud of him.

My oldest visited her first college today, Nevada State.  She paid attention and learned as much as she could.  She seemed to enjoy her field trip away from school and picked up some valuable knowledge as well.

The vibe stayed pretty positive today, which made most of the day run smoothly, even if there were a few bumps.

Positive Daily Three – Day 136

Summer has arrived.  I have learned that in Las Vegas, summer does not creep in, it barges in and makes itself comfortable.  The heat did not bother me as much as I thought it would, though.  I guess I am acclimating finally.

I went with my youngest to the park this morning, before it got really warm.  She ran around and played, and I got my workout in with my friend.  I did better with this workout, and it really feels like I am building my strength back up.

We made it to Costco and I spent more than I wanted to, but got everything we needed.  The good news is, that was probably the last big shopping necessary before we leave for our summer trip.

My son rode his bike without training wheels, and didn’t give up if he fell.  He kept getting up today, and I was very proud of him.  He did awesome.  He still needs practice, but the fact that he didn’t let fear control him today made me super happy.

My oldest is super excited to go on a field trip tomorrow, and she has been working hard on a law presentation that is due for her on Thursday.  I am very proud to see her really putting in the time and effort to do a great job, even though it is not her favorite subject.

I went for a run this evening, and it felt awesome.  I don’t know why, but running toward the end of my night, is the perfect way for me to reflect on my day and really just have that quiet me time that I have been neglecting to take.  It has been making all the difference in how I handle situations.  In some ways, it has given me the ability to be more focused and find my rhythm again.

Positive Daily Three – Day 135

This weekend was spent attending children’s parties, watching a movie I had never seen and doing something that I never thought I would do on my own.  I started going to church a little over a month ago because I felt like I needed to start building a community and because I really felt like I needed to start nurturing my spiritual side.  A friend invited me to attend church with her, and I really enjoyed the flow and set up of the church.  I started attending regularly.  This weekend was the first time I went on my own.  My friend was out of town, so I was surprised at myself for stepping way out of my comfort zone and going on my own.  I was glad I did go because I really enjoyed and took away a great deal of inspiration from the sermon.  I have been taking the time to start really reflecting on things.

My birthday was on Friday, so I also used the time to reflect on this last year.  It was incredible to look back and see everything that has happened since last May.  The changes, adventures and challenges have been numerable.  I am thankful that I have had the wisdom this year to seek help when I needed it, and start reaching out to others.  I am very grateful that my courage has become powerful enough that it pushes me to step beyond my comfort zones and experience life in ways I would have been to afraid to before.  In truth, it has been a pretty good year.  These last 5 months of it have been the most challenging with my husband gone, but I am very grateful that our relationship has grown to a point where our communication is honest and open.  A piece of me will always feel empty during the times he is missing, but I am forever thankful that he supports me as much as he does in everything that I do.

Today was a great day.  I took my youngest to the Wetlands Park.  We went as a family before my husband left, and she remembered it.  She even remembered that her Daddy pulled the lever that made the rabbit pop out.  I smiled and laughed a lot today.  We hiked on a couple of trails, threw rocks in the wash, and played with all the indoor, educational, interactive exhibits.  She had fun, and I did as well.

I picked up my friend’s daughter from school today, and my son was quite happy to have a playmate.  Surprisingly, having a friend over for him made my day a little bit smoother.  I did not have to break up any fights between my youngest and him, and for the most part, they played relatively well together.

I brought my oldest daughter over to Civil Air Patrol tonight, and the car ride was extremely fun tonight.  Everyone was in relatively good moods, and the soundtrack for Moana had everyone singing and dancing in the car.  Good times!

I’d love to hear what some of your positive experiences have been today!

Positive Daily Three – Day 131

The weather today was awesome, and I was happy that I spent most of it outside.  I went to the park with my youngest after I dropped my son off and we played on the playground for about 45 minutes while we waited for Costco to open.  We had fun running around and going down slides.  I definitely love being a stay at home mom when I get to play and rediscover childhood.  After we finished shopping, I packed lunch for us and we went back to the park, had a picnic, and she rode her trike while I walked around the park.  We played at the other playground for a bit and headed back home.  I loved every minute of it, and she seemed to be having fun too.

We made it to karate on time tonight, which has been quite a task the last few weeks.  Master Gordon said she really wanted to get my son and oldest daughter into yellow belts because they looked way to good to still be in white belts.  We missed the testing the last time they did it because we were out of town.  She said she would probably test them when we get back from our summer trip.  That was a great compliment for both of them, and I am very proud that their hard work is paying off.

I got a good run in tonight.  For me, running is totally liberating and helps any stress I did have melt away.  I love being able to push myself or just take it easy and let my feet hit the pavement to the beat of the music playing in my ear.  I am very thankful to my oldest for watching the younger kids after I get them to bed so that I have some alone time to get my run in.

Positive Daily Three – Day 130

Today was simple, but there was a lot  to be grateful for.  I met up with my friend at the park and we did our workout.  It felt great to be outside today and to get some exercise in.  I was able to go to the Dollar Tree and Walmart to get things we need for our summer trip and for the kids’ party.  I have everything I need now except food for the party.  It’s nice to be able to cross something off of my to do list.  I finished reading The Book Thief last night.  I’m glad I read the epilogue.  It made the book slightly less depressing.  My youngest and I went to 2 parks today and had a great time playing.

I definitely had some bad moments today too, but I have accepted that I am a work in progress with a long way to go.  For the most part, though, I feel like I did a better job responding to situations today than I have in the past, so that is a small victory.

Positive Daily Three – Day 129

It feels like it has been so much longer, but a lot has happened in the last 129 days.  I am looking forward to what I like to think of as the wind down.  Getting past that half way mark makes the time seem to go by much faster.

Today was a pretty good day.  I went to A&FRC and got some solid information on deployment child care benefits.  Since I was on base, I swung by a friend’s house to drop off a gift and was able to spend some time visiting, which was awesome and a great way to spend the morning.

I was able to spend some time outside with my youngest reading books and having another picnic.  The weather has been totally awesome this week, so being outside for at least some of it cannot be avoided.  We made it to karate, and both my oldest daughter and son did great and I can see improvement in their skills.

I got a good run in tonight, and it felt great.  I am also hoping to finish The Book Thief tonight.  I started reading it about three weeks ago, and am finally getting to the end so I can pick another book up.  It takes me a while to get through books because I usually don’t get to read until I am laying down to go to bed, but I still love reading, even if I am much slower at it now.

Positive Daily Three – Thankful

This weekend left me full of gratitude.  Friday night I was able to sneak away to have dinner with a friend that I have never had a one on one with, so it was great to have the opportunity to get to know her a little better.  Saturday was a gorgeous day, and I got to spend it hiking with my kids and my oldest’s boyfriend and his Mom.  It was a beautiful trail that ended with a little trickle that is a waterfall during January.  Afterward, we went to lunch at a little cafe and then all came home and had nap time, and finished off the day with One-Man Star Wars starring Charlie Ross.  If you ever get the opportunity to see this man on stage, do it.  He is very talented and it was a lot of fun.  The kids even enjoyed it.  For Mother’s Day, we went to Church, which has really been helping me with my spiritual growth and in building a community.  The kids are all really enjoying it as well, which I am also grateful for.

After that, we went over to a  friend’s house for lunch and had a wonderful time.  The kids were all playing together, with very little incident, and the littler kids were keeping busy as well.  It was a very relaxing day filled with great conversation, fun and memories.

Today we jumped right back into the swing of things.  It was a pleasant day, though.  I made it to story time with my youngest, and she had fun.  We sat on the blanket outside when we got home because it was another beautiful day, and we read books and ate lunch.  I was able to finish up the laundry, dust the living room and get the bottom floor mostly cleaned.  These are huge accomplishments all in one day.  My younger 2 even cooperated and cleaned up their play room.  It is the small victories that are awesome.

It’s amazing to me that once you start looking for positive things in your day, your list of good things slowly starts to outnumber the negative things that you might encounter throughout the day.  I am very thankful that my husband asked me to do this and that I now seek out the positives in my day.  I am definitely not perfect and am still a work in progress, but I am starting to see that finding the brighter side of life starts to become easier and easier the more you do it.