There are those days where we encounter some valleys before we can rise up onto a mountain peak. Today was one of those days for me. Tuesdays are our busiest day of the week. My eldest daughter has a club meeting, so I pick my son up from school, drive over to pick her up from school, and then we have about 30 – 45 minutes before we all have to pile back into the car to go to karate. It is all worth the effort, but towards the end of the day, I can feel the exhaustion creeping into my bones, and sometimes I just lose it a little. As we were driving to karate and home from karate, I yelled a couple of times. The noise got to me. I felt like Dr. Seuss’ Grinch. “All the noise, noise, noise, noise!” I requested, not so graciously, that everyone be quiet because I had a headache and I wanted to hear just one complete song without someone talking to me or making noise. After my outburst, I saw that I clearly overreacted and fell right back into a positive attitude and apologized, but that was my valley today. The plus side is that I found my footing again and ended the day at the top of a peak.
I started a new workout routine today, which I have been anxious to get back to. My goal was to run at least two miles, and I did accomplish that, while getting my youngest daughter some nice, fresh air. I was very happy to achieve this goal today.
My son did not throw a single temper tantrum today. This is a mild celebration for myself. I have been slowly reading “The 5 Love Languages” by Gary Chapman, which has been assisting me in opening my eyes to how to handle situations with my husband and children in a more effective way. I haven’t gotten very far in the book, but a reference to an empty love tank has greatly changed the way in which I approach situations with my son. I am beginning to find ways to help him fill his “love tank”, which in turn has lead to him acting out less. My better understanding has helped both of us and is really assisting in turning our relationship in a very positive direction.
The greatest positive of the day was that all of my children were able to have a video call with my husband this evening. I have been able to talk to him, but his calls have been either during nap time or after the younger children are asleep and my eldest daughter is at her weekly evening meetings, so they have not really seen or talked to him for a couple of days. It made my heart smile to see all of them so excited to be talking to Daddy.
Today was definitely not perfect, but when we stumble into valleys, no matter how deep or wide, the comfort of knowing that there is only one way to go gives me the stamina to push forward and redirect my energy.